Not Nearly As Exciting

So far this week has been pretty dull aside from all the insanity happening in the United States right now. Continuing the medication and it seems to be better aside from the stiff/swelling sensation in my joints when I wake up in the morning. My hands are the most affected where even now they feel...off. Also keep catching myself saying or typing the wrong word even though my brain thought it was the right one. Not sure if that's concerning or not.

Currently posting content for the following:
-Evil Within: Co-op, blind (have chapters 11 and 12 ready to publish)
-Sonic 2006: Solo, commentated (a very anticipated LP if your name happens to be Janette)
-Dishonored 2: Solo, blind (a very unanticipated LP if your name happens to be Janette)
-Pillars of Eternity: Solo, blind (will probably go on for eternity)

Working on:
-Evil Within
-RPG stuff
-Writing
-Sonic 2006
-Recording a Banished game but I doubt anyone wants to watch me try to stop people from starving and freezing to death for hours on end as the quest to circle the giant lake continues.
-Dishonored 2 (minor edits)
-Recording the last bits of Pillars of Eternity
-2k subs video. No idea what yet.

Also I may be getting a puppy. Keep you updated.

I Have a Service?

I guess NIPPON KOEI CO., LTD needs someone to reject LEGO cock rockets and mediate arguments between a couple of 40 year old men. There's only so many dicks I can manage, Nippon Koei...even if the service is not time consuming.

Take that as you will.

So.

This week has been interesting so far. Skied on Saturday which was fine other than the person I skied with nearly passing out on the hill, walked around a wedding fair for 4 hours holding jackets, looking for jackets and watching Carmen spray silly string out of a penis shaped dispenser into Mel's face (but they got a free limo ride to a club because of it so...), then we won our dodgeball game on Monday and I had a mild panic attack and nearly puked at the end of the game (for reasons I'll explain in a moment) and yesterday I was nearly fined for trespassing, made a dorky looking white guy flip his shit when I misjudged a turn and blocked his lane of traffic, got an update on the saga of the Italian Apartment and then got a passive aggressive note on my car for parking perfectly in the centre of a parking space.

So...

Where should I start?

Well, I've started a medication recently which will eliminate one checkmark off the stress box and create a whole new list to factor in. For the last five days I've woken up exhausted with stiff and painful joints and I'm an emotional trainwreck. Also I've been mildly nauseous and constantly hungry (no, I'm not pregnant).  Waking up and getting to work in the morning has been an astronomical struggle as it takes every ounce of my willpower to drag myself out of bed. Going to trial this stuff for a month and if it doesn't get better I'm going to ditch it.

Meanwhile the person I skied with on Saturday didn't have his breakfast, so I thought I'd be chasing an unconscious body down the hill. I think it was the one difficult run through the trees that really set him off. It was the one where my ski got wedged in the snow and it just popped off. I slid down about 30 feet and then a snowball rolled down and hit me in the face.

Wedding fair was for a friend, but we spent a very long time there walking down every single aisle collecting all the brochures and business cards and entering all the contests with labels that she printed off the night before. It got more interesting at the end when we found the guy dressed in a penis suit and another booth with the silly string dispensers. Thank goodness we had a big breakfast before this because I was exhausted after.

I was extremely stressed and anxious all day Monday and likely had some off food for lunch. The result was a stressful drive halfway across the city to a place I haven't been before that led me through two traffic circles and a dead end before I finally found the school. I spend the entire hour trying to balance hunger, nausea and wondering whether I was going to pass out. Then I took off pretty quick afterwards because I didn't want to puke in the gym. Thanks crippling anxiety and meds!

Yesterday was better for anxiety, though I was later than I wanted and needed to park in guest temporarily to make a morning stand up, then drive it all the way over to a road 5 mins away, then walk all the way back. I'd park at the building, but it's nice to save 200 dollars a month for other things. On my way back at the end of the day I decided it was a great idea to take a short cut down the dirt road that went along the tracks. I was stupid cause there were no trespassing signs, but I figured those were leftovers from construction on the building. Of course, the police officer who my coworker and I saw from the bathroom had looped back and I got the speel about train safety and trespassing and how I could get a fine of $287 dollars for using a road on CP rail property, which by the way, at least five people who were NOT CP Rail were parked on. Just saying. So now I'm in the system and if I'm caught doing that again I could get the fine (or if the officer is particularly bored or grouchy, arrested). So that's also fun.

Afterwards I got in my car, a little mad, and made my way up to job 2 and misjudged a turn because of the sun and a ridiculously high volume of traffic that I could have avoided had I been able to leave 10 minutes sooner. So I was sitting there blocking a lane of traffic for a good 30 minutes while I watched some dude have a fit in his car about it. If I hadn't been a little upset from the trespassing thing I would have probably started giggling.

Get up to work and parking is terrible and there's tons of people there for some reason. I found a spot where two giant ass soccer mom SUVs were RIGHT on the line. My car is small so I fit in there fine. I was a little close to the car next to me, but to be fair, they parked terribly and were borderline in my space. This didn't stop them from leaving a passive aggressive "thank you, couldn't get in my car, you parked too close" which I thought was insurance information for damage on my car I didn't see. So I'm driving down the road seeing this paper flap around (after I had used the wipers and wiper fluid), panicking that it was going to fly away with no where to pull over and grab it. When I finally pull the soggy paper off the windshield on the side road I threw it in my car and just kind of snapped. I destroyed the note thoroughly when I got home and grabbed a handful of snow to cool my face down. I forgot to take off my glasses first.

So I just sat there in the passenger seat with snow all over my glasses and face for a minute or two contemplating the futility of my existence.


Doing better again today. Woke up feeling less awful. I have to remember to go and move my car again cause...did the guest parking thing again and the last thing I need is a ticket. Then I have to walk all the way around a building to get back. Might bring some coffee or something with me.

Other than breaking the law and upsetting drivers, I've been working on finishing up an Emily, low chaos playthrough of Dishonored 2 and a lot of RPG stuff. Mesk is back on the RPG train and needs assets, so I'll likely try and give those a shot. Some of them will be useful for what I'm doing as well. Good news is we're exchanging all the assets we find, so there will be lots to draw on.

VTM re-play will likely resume sometime this week. We still have a ways to go to get back to where we were. We're also trying to decide what to play next. Shauna and I have resolved to work through the backlog of video this year. I'll be tackling SOMA, VTM and the rest of Sherlock and Evil Within, and she'll be taking on the next LP editing.


PS - Was just looking out the window again and really, the reasons the officer gave me of why it's illegal to use that road are mostly bullshit. If he had just said private property, that would have been fine, but he said it was the Railway Safety Act. The road is actually far enough away from the tracks to be considered safe. Also, there are currently 8 civilian cars parked there. Also I saw a guy WALKING ON THE TRACKS. Also there's a parking lot owned by one of the buildings across the tracks that is CLOSER TO THE TRACKS than the road. Not that I'm salty or anything.

Smell You Later 2016

Well, 2016. It was a year. 365 whole days. How 'bout that?

To be honest, kind of a rough year for LPs. I got more than I thought I would done, but with moving and some major things happening, it was a little hard to get as much as I wanted to done. 

Not finished Evil Within 'cause it makes me angry and Dishonored 2 seemed to be a better use of my time. Not finished my year-end video, mainly just because I'm trying to figure out what the best clips I can use for it are (almost done tbh). I couldn't remember what I released this year because I'm sitting on a lot of old stuff that I haven't published yet. Thankfully YouTube has date and time stamps to help me. Overall just a lot of video didn't get done because a) most of it requires extensive editing, b) I work 40+ hours a week because I like to eat food and live somewhere, c) a lot of random shit happened like my car breaking and my grandpa dying, d) it's been an emotional rollercoaster of anxiety, dread and depression all year. That's looking at things negatively though. On the flip side, my production standards and editing skills have increased, I managed to hold onto a steady job while many people here are struggling to find work due to a bad economy, I got a new car with door locks that actually work, someone close to me rekindled their love of playing guitar after playing at my grandpa's funeral, and I learned that I can survive a full-blown panic attack while driving a car. 

And to start off the year 2017, I got my first "get back in the kitchen" comment ever! I didn't think they actually existed. I thought it was a over-simplified joke that people made when talking about assholes on the internet. a) Either the laziest troll ever, or b) an idiot so frustrated with his life that he actually believes this shit.



It's okay though. This dude and the ambiguous "we" not only created my comments section, but the whole "website" single-handedly. I figured it deserved a special shout-out. Does Google even know? Also he seems to be another person who doesn't understand that you can edit your own comments on YouTube. That or he really likes spam.

Either way, 2016 LP recap video is up. Hope you enjoy!

PS - Almost complete Silver's storyline in Sonic 2006. I wasn't feeling well when I was playing it an ended up having a minor panic attack while playing and nearly puked. I actually had to stop playing for like 10-20 minutes to take a rage break, so I can safely say that this game is now hashbrowns-on-forehead bad. Two games now fit that category and they were both part of 2016.