Cadence

OH HI THERE. I'M ALIVE I SWEAR.

I've been back for a couple weeks now, but I need to set up a video schedule again. I've just had zero motivation to do...well a lot of things. Vacation was all right, but the lake is even worse this year than it was last year health-wise. The zebra mussels have spread and there's just millions upon millions of razor-sharp shells all over the beaches and in the water attached to the rocks. These things have apparently been in the Great Lakes for a number of years, but they've finally reached Lake Winnipeg and started multiplying like crazy. They've been clogging up pipes and ruining swimming areas. They suck all the nutrients and healthy algae out of the water, killing everything but the dangerous blue-green algae which is caused by extra phosphorus in the water from farmland run off. Two people cut their feet on these while I was out there. I had a close call but I have a lot of experience in those waters with the rocks, so I've learned to step lightly.

It's just hard seeing the lake and place I love slowly change for the worse. The lake is dying and currently there's not much the people who live and vacation around the lake can do about it other than scream into the void or try to take matters into their own hands and cause more damage as evidenced with the destruction of a shoreline due to an illegal, improper sea wall.

Other than my father nearly lighting the cottage on fire by leaving the stove element on and placing a wooden cutting board on top of it, the week went well. The weather was mostly good other than one unbearably hot night. No power outages while I was out there for once and I got through the majority of Sacred Stones in one week (playing it for like...the third time or something).

Oh and I think my Great Aunt was the catalyst for the construction of a $55,000 staircase down to the water due to her being stubborn. I...don't have all the details on that one yet.

Now I'm back home and it's back to the grind. One of the locks on our house broke due to metal fatigue so we were getting that fixed over the past week. My dog's skin is finally healing (he had some sort of allergic reaction likely due to him rolling in a disgusting mud puddle) and he's found new items to steal when he's bored including books now. My neighbour didn't call bylaw services on anyone while I was gone so...I suppose that's a bonus.

Now I'm just trying to figure out what I want to do with video and recording. I want to continue things, but part of it is finding time and part of it is just...wanting to do it. I've been more antisocial and feeling...off the past few weeks. Months if I'm honest. Then it gets worse and I feel guilty for not being around more. One bright side is I've picked up my writing again, and made the mistake of reading a bunch of it instead of just finishing it, and now I want to "fix" everything. Honestly I just need to commit myself to trying to finish projects/checking if people want to continue games on the same nights each week. That way even if people are busy some days, at least there's a higher chance of actually getting things done again.

It'll probably help with the mental block in the long run.