Aftermath

This week was the beginning of a two-week stint of a lot of extra responsibilities at work. It's good, because I've been wanting to take on a bit of a different role at work, but it was sort of like asking for one of the gates in a dam to be opened only to have the entire damn structure (lol) explode in my face. So in addition to worrying about some medical concerns, I've been getting a cold that's been passed around (or I never fully recovered from what I had a couple weeks back) and I've had a lot of stress stacked on top as I catapult into taking on a lot of extra hours of work/dropping other tasks to make sure things are taken care of.

All of this cumulated in a massive panic attack while I was driving, which, believe it or not I was grateful for. I was on my way home on my long work day (I now work 7:30am-10:30pm on one day at two jobs, which may need to change) and I was feeling pretty sick/faint. I was terrified that I was going to pass out suddenly, even though I've never actually fainted before. I got myself all worked up and I felt the panic attack coming on. The thing is, even though I KNOW what it is, I can't stop it from happening. It's the kind of thing that needs to run its course once it gets past a certain threshold.

It's not exactly comfortable and I haven't had too many of them before (I've had maybe 4-5 massive attacks over my entire life, and most of them are in the middle of the night), but I've had enough that I know how to recognize them. It was the strangest experience, because I went from feeling faint and nauseous, then short of breath, to completely alert with full concentration. I got this tingling sensation in my hands to the point where they went completely numb (I could still use them fine but I couldn't "feel" them) and it felt like my blood in my hands was bubbling. It wasn't hot, but it felt as though both my hands had the circulation cut off, but it wasn't painful and it was super intense. The rest of my body had tremors running through it and I had a burning sensation across my chest and face.

I was worried I wouldn't be able to go again if I pulled over into the shoulder on the road, so I just...kept driving. I experienced that for about 15minutes for the rest of the drive home and it started to go away when I was about 2minutes out. My subconscious was aware that I was almost in a "safe" zone I suppose. Anyway the reason I was grateful for it, was when it came on I knew that I WOULDN'T faint, because it was literally impossible. When I have panic attacks, my heart rate and blood pressure increases and you faint when the opposite happens. My nausea went away too so, I got the lesser of two evils.

So yeah. That was fun. Waking up has been difficult the last couple days, but I am feeling better for now. All of this will be addressed in a week's time. And yes, if you are all wondering, I would have pulled over if I was actually going to faint or throw up. I know what fainting feels like cause it's almost happened a few times (but never actually lost consciousness).

Anyway...here have some soundtracks.

Destiny: Rise of Iron - Actually like this soundtrack quite a bit. Apparently it was officially released this week. I should play more of this some day.

Game of Thrones - Apparently this is all the soundtracks. It's like 6 hours long. I'm going to just listen to a bit of it.

Working on the RPG again. Fixed a bunch of issues that were mildly frustrating, but also kind of hilarious. Working on the battle system and items now, but it's going to require a lot of testing to make sure it's functional. I'm hoping to have the first map done by the end of October. Theoretically, barring issues finding or making specific assets, the rest of it should go a lot quicker now that I have an idea of what I'm doing.

It wouldn't be a possibility this year, but maybe I can use this RPG as an incentive for Extra Life next year. Not that anyone would actually want to play the damn thing, but I could give out a copy to the top three donors or something. I'll talk to Kathleen about it. This year I may get Mesk, Shauna and Delta in on Extra Life activities. Likely going to be purchasing a capture card so I can do PS3/PS4 games.

Extra Life 2016 Announcement

Hey all, we're getting ready for Extra Life again this year. Kathleen was unfortunately sick last year, so we had a little bit of a quieter year. This year she's going for a goal of $2000 dollars for the Alberta Children's hospital, so I'm hoping to help her raise that!

I'll probably do an announcement video as I normally do, but I'll wait until I've got things a little more under control with work etc. In the meantime, you can find Kathleen's donation page here, and her Twitch here (I need to get the link...will add later) . She may do some pre-streaming, so you should all go subscribe to her on there.

A few weeks before I'm going to throw up a poll or something to see if I can gauge what you all want to see me play. I might order a capture card that I can hook up to the PS3/PS4 since both Shauna and I have an interest in LPing some of those games in the future anyway. If there's more interest for some 6-year-old gaming laptop friendly games, I can play those as well (problem is getting them to stream smoothly). I would love to bring my tower to Kathleen's place, but I don't think I want to risk moving it.

Soundtrack Thursday:

Psycho Pass 2nd Season - I liked the other music I tried out from a couple months ago so...here's some more!

Tokyo Ghoul - Don't look at me. I don't watch much anime. I just followed the dongles from Psycho Pass until I got to something I haven't listened to before.

Deathnote - An anime I actually watched in early University years I believe.

I am very tired today, but I'm still going. Going to be hopefully getting more answers at the end of the month and I'm not leaving until I have a course of action plotted out. I've had enough of this months ago and nothing I do or change seems to affect it all that much.

Meanwhile some sort of war rages in the comments section from last week. I'm amused, confused and wondering what the hell is going on. I'm only engaging to throw a little humour and information in there. We'll see if it hits critical mass and collapses on itself.

Also meanwhile, every video I post is getting bot spam on it lately. "Liked and subscribed" my ass. I can see all my recent subscribers. Thankfully YT is smart enough to identify these as spam and the problem mostly takes care of itself. I liked the "It looks like you put a lot of work into this and you make it look so easy haha!" on Shadow of Mordor where I literally make the game look as hard as possible  with the amount of things that go wrong.

Emo-Cakes

Life's been a rollercoaster since I got back. I want to leave again. Maybe I can go become a hermit in the mountains and live off the land or something. I'll give myself 5 days before I get eaten by a bear. Or squirrels. A swarm of squirrels. The little red ones. I'll put up a good fight, but in the end they'll surround my encampment and wait for me to get weak from hunger and dehydration. Then they'll descend upon me and I'll ignite the fire traps I set around me taking the little bastards with me. One will survive to tell the tale. And thus I'll discourage the great rodent uprising. Humans be crazy.

Actually if I'm anything like my one D&D character, I would probably just shove random mushrooms in my face and get taken out that way.

Going to be calling up all the old favourites today. I'm not in the mood for searching for new stuff.

Bastion
Crypt of the Necrodancer
Witcher 3

Been playing pretty much exclusively Shadow of Mordor. I want to get another solo LP out. It's been so long. I've actually been having quite a bit of fun playing it, but I keep getting myself into insane situations. The tagline for it really should be "I didn't want this" and the thumbnail for the series can be our emo-cakes protagonist doing a faceplant into a group of about 20 orcs.

That or I can do a compilation of faceplants when the series is over. Evil Within has got me all CREATIVE. Which, by the way, if you haven't seen it, I'd check out the oddities compilations. Those videos perfectly outline why that game is a "work of art".

The Oddities Within

Brand New Day

So Oliver got his car all cleaned up. Apparently it wasn't as bad as it could have been since all he had to do was pull up the lining in the trunk. The trunk's roof lining was taken too for some reason cause...uh...there's a whole lot you can do with that. Oliver seems to think it was some drug addict that did it based on what was taken in terms of change and valuables.

Anyway, unpleasantness behind us, today is soundtrack Thursday.

Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog

Repo: The Genetic Opera

Little Shop of Horrors

It's one of those days.

I'll be working on Evil Within probably Sunday/Monday since I'll be busy the next few days catching up with some people and going to a wedding. I'm also trying to get the Myst 4 content off the G Drive so I can record some new things (namely Shadow of Mordor and Myst 5). Also debating on whether I want to do the Dawnguard DLC for Skyrim or a run on Oblivion (I have a plan if I do this one). Dying for another solo LP since it's so easy to edit.

In the meantime I have a ton of Vermintide videos as well as Saints Row 4. Probably going to start posting those soon since it's been like...2 weeks.